Sorry for checking out for a bit there, i just spent my last week and weekend sick in bed with one of the nastiest colds/flu viruses in recent memory. It was the pits, completed with body aches, fever and one of the worst sore throats ever.
I was having a hard time and found myself feeling a little bit of sadness mixed with a tinge of depression. The sad part, simply put, has something to do with the recognition that i only learn to listen when my body tells me "enough". Sometimes it slips my mind that nothing really works without our health. The depression [that goes hand in hand with sadness}, has something to do with how i feel about my day-job as a programmer ~ unproductive and uninspired. That longing feeling for more time and more space to spend on my creative dream continues to yearn on ~ calling me. Maybe it was all these feelings that finally boiled down to this nastiest colds/flu. Either way, i didn't get much in the way of crafting done. It was good to have to stay away from the sewing machine for a while because it reminded me of how much i really enjoy sewing and seaming away. This slowing down, also reminded me of the comfort joy in "appreciating the tiny little things and the people around" ~ sometimes it just slip pass my fingers.
Sitting here in this slightly chill morning sunshine quietly sharing space with you here on my little bubble space was also one of the things that i needed most. Being here with you and connecting myself in this creative world keeps me calm, gives me a little more faith and believes in myself and allows me to carry on.
I also wanted to say thank YOU to each of you who commented so kindly about my wedding ring pillow. It feels good to have made a big check beside that item on my list. I'll be back soon with more crafty news.
Have a lovely merry happy week and love to you and yours ~ always!
So glad you are feeling better! I also had a terrible flu this season that really slowed me down for about 2 weeks. It was terrible, but like you said it makes you really appreciate when you are feeling better and helps you focus on what you love doing! You are so creative - I know you will make your creative dreams come true. Hang in there and keep feeling better.
xo
Julia
Posted by: Julia | November 10, 2009 at 01:41 PM
Ooh I'm glad your on the mend Jacqueline. I wish you a complete and speedy recovery so you can get back to what you love
xx
Posted by: Kaili | November 10, 2009 at 03:07 PM
Hi Jacqueline, glad to hear that you're feeling better! Its awful being sick and feeling depressed. I know what you mean about needing to create, because its as important as eating and breathing! Please take care and best wishes to you on your creative journey, and achieving your dreams!! xo
Posted by: wini | November 10, 2009 at 03:47 PM
Hello Jacqueline, I'm so glad to hear that you are feeling better! It's rough getting the flu! And feeling depressed at the same time makes it even worse!
When you feel stronger, I hope you find ways to fit more and more of your dream into your days! xx
Posted by: Kate England | Marmalade Moon | November 10, 2009 at 06:00 PM
Very glad you are on the mend, dear Jacqueline! :o) But how sorry I am you've been sad and depressed as well as ill. I well understand how your feel too--that need to create burns so bright, it is something we have to do. I'm sorry you're unhappy in your day job. Perhaps there are little ways to make it more creative and meaningful for you--that way it doesn't feel like wasted time? Personally, I do think the turmoil, illness, etc. can be manifest in the body if there is a lot underlying negativity or inner struggle going on. So maybe that is way you've not been well recently. Do be taking good care to be well, keep those creative sparks burning bright and may all your dreams come true! Happy Days, my friend ((BIG HUGS))
Posted by: Tracy | November 10, 2009 at 06:56 PM
Dear Jacqueline, take your time to reflect, relax and dedicate this time only for you , that´s so very important .
I´m praying for your recovery and believe me, everything will be alright , believe yourself, you are a beautiful, creative and inspiring woman! Love to you!
Mina
Posted by: Mina | November 10, 2009 at 07:22 PM
I'm glad to hear you're feeling better. You were sorely missed:) I know how it feels like to want to pursue creative dreams that have been calling out from deep inside of you while having to do the exact opposite. I hope that you'll find courage, creativity and regain your strength :)
Always remember that we're here to support you :)
Posted by: Elle | November 10, 2009 at 08:47 PM
So sorry to hear you were ill and sad. I hope you are feeling better very soon. I can relate to your depression and sadness feelings! I have grown to dislike my job more and more over the past two years, also making me feel terribly uninspired. Keep your chin up and slowly chip away towards your creative dream!
Posted by: Terriaw | November 10, 2009 at 09:18 PM
Oh you poor dear! There really isn't anything worse than being under the weather! But it sounds like you are on t he mend!
Sending you lots of happy creative thoughts and a big hug too : )
Posted by: Gigi Minor | November 10, 2009 at 09:57 PM
So sorry to hear you have been so unwell - wish you a quick return to health ( and happiness!) Big Hug :)
Posted by: Mousy Brown | November 10, 2009 at 10:13 PM
I usually don't say this or even feel it from a blog post, but your wish to be able to create without having to be in an uninspired job almost brought me to tears!!! Powerful stuff you are saying!
I have had some fantastic jobs and experiences (worked at UBS investment bank with their art collectors and the art department at the Martha Stewart show) but I have always wanted to be doing my own work, my own inspiration and most importantly to meet with people who want to share their life experiences and knowledge freely w/me.
The work environment doesn't let artists or art-thinking people have this right!
Heart goes out to you!
Posted by: TheCluelessCrafter | November 10, 2009 at 11:49 PM
Happy Day to you Jacqueline. I'm so glad you are feeling better. Being sick can get you down. There's nothing you are suppose to be doing except resting. Feel much better soon.
Posted by: Valarie Budayr | November 11, 2009 at 01:20 AM
Glad you're back on your feet. Sounds like your body doesn't like the day job any more than you do. I know you'll be a full time artist one day. Hope you can find a way to make it happen sooner rather than later.
In the meantime, take the best care of yourself. xx
Posted by: Helen | November 11, 2009 at 03:46 AM
Take all the time you need for a little self-care. Sometimes when our energy gets depleted, we just need time to think and collect some positive creative energy. Thinking of you..Hugs :D
Posted by: Heather | November 11, 2009 at 04:50 AM
So sad to know your where feeling sick. Glad to know your are feeling better and sewing again.
Posted by: Petergaye S. Kisielewicz/yahgie | November 11, 2009 at 06:05 AM
oh my...you and me are in the same space right now...I feel extremely bad for you my dear because I know exactly how you feel....kick that flu bugs butt my dear...I am having a hard time winning as well. I think ok...I feel better than wham bang it has hit me again...zapping all my energy and positive thinking. I pray that each day you start to feel better and you will be at that sewing machine soon...don't rush things{I know that is hard not to do when you just want to get moving on with life} xoxoxox I will be away from school for a few more days for sure.
Posted by: koralee | November 11, 2009 at 08:08 AM
hey jacqueline :)
i', sorry to hear that you're feelng a tad blue. hopefully, u will feel good very soon - both physically and mentally! just take one step at a time, and you'll get there :)
Posted by: lyn | November 11, 2009 at 08:47 AM
So sorry you have been feeling so down,physically and emotionally. I know body and mind do go hand in hand. You will get to where you want to be with your creative dream. Just keep that belief always!
Rest as much as you need. Feel better.
Posted by: Dana Barbieri | November 11, 2009 at 09:16 AM
I'm glad you are taking time for yourself and taking care!!! The body does tell us when it's time to listen!!! Thinking about you!
Posted by: rani | November 11, 2009 at 01:46 PM
I'm glad to hear you are on the mend in body. hopefully in soul too. i know the day job blues can be really heavy. but it's good motivation to move toward doing what you love...i know you will find a way to make it happen...xox
Posted by: Susie | November 11, 2009 at 01:47 PM
Hi! Thanks so much for stopping by my blog and leaving your sweet comments. I'm loving that picture here, the little path towards that yellow cottage is calling me to take a walk. :) Glad to hear that you are feeling better. These times of sickness really tell us how we need to take care of ourselves don't they.
Posted by: Faith | November 12, 2009 at 12:16 AM
Jacky, you're a programmer? Like computer programming? really?! Me too!! :D Well... but I love my job heheeh I'm a webdesigner too so I think it has a lot of the creative part that we enjoy :) I just love what I do, just like my needles and threads, it's all creating but with different tools! ;)
I hope you fell much better soon!! =)
Big hug to you!
Posted by: Nia | November 12, 2009 at 04:13 AM
Dear Nia, yes i'm a programmer, i build ERP software. :) It's true what you said that it has alot to do with creativity as well just in different mediums.
Dear friends, a heartfelt thank you for all the love and support each and everyone of you are sending my way. You guys made me teary in a good way. :)
Love to all of you!
Posted by: Jacqueline | November 12, 2009 at 08:45 AM
Dear Jacqueline, I'm so sorry to hear that you had a tough week :( I'm glad that you're feeling better now :) I was also working as a programmer and I know your feeling...it can get really boring at some points, but there are some good things to it. For example when you fix an error and the joy it brings!! haha!! Am I right?
But don't let these feelings let you down. Being creative and loving crafts is great but at the same time having a good day job is also great! (Maybe part-time works better for people like us!)I just wish the best for you because you are one of the sweetest people that I've even met!
Posted by: Afi | November 16, 2009 at 01:27 PM
I wish you to get well so soon and be smiling like always.Life is a name of ordeals and perils.Diseases and illness and difficult times come in life but it has to be faced with courage and determination.Your family plays a much supporting role when you are ill.It reminds you the love and care of your dear ones.
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